self-loathing       
 noun [ U ] uk/ˌselfˈləʊ.ðɪŋ/ us/ˌselfˈloʊ.ðɪŋ/
 自我厌恶
very strong feelings of dislike for yourself
  He was full of anxiety and self-loathing. 他心中充满了焦虑和自我厌恶。 
 self-loathing       
adjective uk/ˌselfˈləʊ.ðɪŋ/ us/ˌselfˈloʊ.ðɪŋ/
 感觉自我厌恶的
feeling strongly that you dislike yourself
  a self-loathing failed novelist 自我厌恶的失败小说家